Rhaegar's Proposal; A Flashback
Setting: 602 AC; Rhaelle Baratheon has returned home after council with another noble house.
Her next journey will be North.
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His mother had gone again. Days and days on end without her guidance and though she was not overtly outright with it - her protection, left her young son, Rhaegar at the hands of his grandmother and just about anyone to come to the castle at Storm's End. His grandmother only kept his company in private. Often if her chambers were bombarded with urgent news he was dismissed in the same manner of a servant back to his "duties" which had become code for his room.
A child only recently seen his third name day, Rhaegar reconciled his feelings of hurt and anger by knocking over her wine as he was ushered out of the room, or throwing the tassels of her drapes into the fire. If he was not able to do that, upon their next meeting he would bring her dead animals or put mud in her shoes. Once, playing in the courtyard, he proposed she spy the most beautiful flower in the garden but her point of visual had to be exact... exactly on top of an ant hill. His grandmother screamed something terrible as the insects ripped at her stockings and bit her skin. He was rewarded with several hard lashes from her hand and sent to his room, where he would remain for the next few days.
Is only reprieve was the company of the Lady Xara Xaq, a princess of the Summer Isles now a lady to his mother, Rhaelle Baratheon. Lady Xara was his mother's best friend and chief lady in waiting. Aside from his mother and by occasion his grandmother, she was the only woman that was outrightly nice to him. Even his own nanny took a terrible pleasure in punishing him again for the deeds having already been punished by his grandmother. So with a properly red backside, Rhaegar was placed into his bed and left for the night without supper. That is, until the Lady Xara came into his chambers, taking the crying child from his bed and to the small lounge within his room. She had brought dried meats and fruit and a roll of his favorite sweet bread and a warmed mug of the breast milk his mother left in jugs in the kitchens.
Nestled comfortably in the arms of the brown skinned woman, Rhaegar sniffled and wept as he tried to eat. The minutes went on and on but the child still wept, even as he sipped milk from the mug. The days without his mother were wearing on him and the delicate heart of the child was stoning and paining from the unwanted attentions he received from so many about the castle. Xara released his hair of its infamous braid and began to come her fingers through the white blonde strands as music bubbled softly from her throat; soon she began to sing:
No one here to guide you
Now you’re on your own
Only me beside you
Still you’re not alone
No one is alone
Truly
No one is alone
Sometimes people leave you
Halfway through the wood
Others may deceive you
You decide what’s good
You decide alone
But no one is alone
People make mistakes
Fathers, Mothers
People make mistakes
Holding to their own
Thinking they’re alone
Honor their mistakes
Everybody makes
One another’s terrible mistakes
Witches can be right
Giants can be good
You decide what’s right
You decide what’s good
Just remember
Someone is on your side
Someone else is not
While you’re seeing your side
Maybe you forgot
They are not alone
No one is alone
Hard to see the light now
Just don’t let it go
Things will turn out right now
We can make it so
Someone is on your side
No one is alone
Confined to his room until the return of his mother for his misdeed, Rhaegar was left with many hours to think on his relations with the more common people in his life, namely Xara Xaq. Xara Xaq was a foreigner from the Summer Isles. She was a princess in her own right and one of many in her family. She told great, wild, and wonderful stories and was often his only source of comfort when that of his grandmother's waned for whatever reason. She was constant, much like his mother. She was petite and beautiful in a way that could not be compared to the woman of his native land.
Rhaegar often wondered if the way she treated him directly related to the place from which she came. It was a place his mother had loved since she was a child, a place she often spoke fondly of. Could that be why his mother kept him? Loved him the way she did? Could that be why no one else loved him so? ... Well save his dear uncle Kainen, but Kainen was a separate beast all together, all together another creature of his own creation. As far as Rhaegar was concerned, no one could be compared to his monstrous uncle Kainen just as no one could compare to Xara Xaq.
For three days, Rhaegar contemplated the world around him with a profound insight that came from the frank and concise conversations he had with his mother and his constant appearance at her side when she was present in his home keep.
On the third day, hours before dawn, the sound of heavy hooves on cobblestone stirred those were not already up. The sound echoed through the still hours of the morning and sprang Rhaegar from his bed. He roughly roused his sleeping maids and demanded to be washed and dressed as quickly as possible. They complied and quickly, but that was only because the sound of Stranger, his mother's great stag, was unmistakable and to incur his mother's wrath before the sun broke the sky was not a way to start the day.
As soon as he was dressed, Rhaegar ran to the courtyard to great his mother. The Beast of Storm's End was
dressed all in dark leathers, a corset and beige blouse. Her boots were two tiered made of expensive but worn leather and one of her arms was covered with leather past her elbow. Her large dark cloak created a trail as she dismounted the largest stag ever to be spotted in the Kingswood. On her back was a round wooden shield that had no emblem. Before removing her effects from the beast, Rhaelle's fingers flicked across the strap that held the shield to her body and let it fall to the floor behind her. Then she bent and picked up her son, kissing his forehead.
"Mother." Rhaegar murmured, burying his head under her chin.
She turned and brought them both to the face of her loyal companion, the animal flattening his face to that of Rhaelle. They stilled for a long moment, their eyes closed as though they shared some sort of psychic connection and conversation. Then the stag turned and gave his face to the child, who gripped it and landed a soft headbutt with a giggle. Stranger guffled and shook his head, his large antlers nearly the length of his uncle's arms outstretched, shook free leaves and rumble from the forests and backroads his mother had been traveling.
Crawling onto her back, Rhaegar clung to his mother as she removed her saddle bags from Stranger and her weapons. He climbed down so she could sling the bags over one shoulders and took her sword from her, knowing he was far to small to carry her warhammer, as most men couldn't carry it comfortably and it was only a replica of the great warhammer used by their ancestor. Stranger turned and took his leave, presumably headed back to the Kingswood as mother and son moved through the nearly empty courtyard toward the stables, followed only by Rhaegar's female brood of caretakers.
Inside the stables put away her saddle bags but carried her weapons back to her room. While she put her things away, undressed, and lounged in a bath, Rhaegar recounted his last days without her. He didn't leave anything out so much as skipped over the bits and pieces he still hadn't worked out on his on. There was no doubt in his mind his mother would be briefed on every transgression he'd made in her absence, but Rhaegar preferred to mull them over in his own time. After all, his life was full of forced opinions from others, the few quiet moments to himself that he had, he enjoyed. Perhaps he got that from his mother.
Rhaelle came from her bath, and dressed in something more suited for a noble woman of the house paramount of the Stormlands. Seeing his mother in a
gown, with her hair in a braided halo, small curls falling here and there, made Rhaegar smile. When his mother dressed like a lady it was a quiet signal that she didn't have any immediate plans to take off again.
By the time she was dressed, her breakfast had been laid out on the balcony and her ladies gathered around to eat with her. Rhaegar took his place on the small chair beside her and they ate in relative silent until his grandmother showed up. She sat herself down at the end of the table without acknowledging Rhaegar, clearly still upset, and began to pick at her daughter for information gained from her travels. Rhaelle stopped eating and began to play with her wine goblet as she often did when in talks with others. The two spoke at length and frankly about the plans that were carefully being lain for the removal of what his mother called a disease.
"There are only two places left." Rhaelle said, sipping her drink.
This made his grandmother frown and look away from her daughter over the edges of the banister. "Another Tyrell on the throne. You should let the boy choose his own wife."
His mother laughed at that. "You want to end up with an illiterate fishmonger's daughter for a queen? Such risk you take, mother, such belief you have in him."
Eirlys scoffed at that and lodging her gaze on her daugther, "We have to believe in him."
"But we must also protect him and the interest of the realm. The Tyrell girl is a walking slate of protocol and refinery, a perfect balance to a pauper prince. Besides, what does he have to complain about? She is a beauty and Reachwoman are whores behind closed doors."
"As opposed to my daughter who is one in a tavern like any other brothel worker."
The comment was meant to sting, but his mother simply shrugged. The comment had hurt him. It was directed at him in a way - the stain on the house of Baratheon. "The doors were closed. It was quite intimate and beautiful; a man of my choosing, intelligent and stupid all in the same rite, handsome and strong."
The mother of the Stormbeasts, scoffed again, slapping her napkin down on the table top as she stood from her seat. "You could have had the same in a noble man. You could have had name and prestige and a life! You could have had love, stupid girl. Instead you bring us scorn and slander!"
Unflinching, Rhaelle rested back in her chair, "Love is for fools and paupers. Children are not slander no matter where they come from. You may go now, you are turning my stomach with your talk of protocol when it is convenient."
"How dare you dismiss me!"
"With the same ease with which I gave birth."
Fuming, Eirlys whirled on a heel but managed to glide out of the room instead of storm out, yet there was no mistaking her rage at her daughter and the bastard boy; ever a lady. When the doors closed behind her there was a long moment before the tension cleared the air. All of the ladies at the table, including Xara Xaq had stopped eating and were staring at their hands in their laps. Rhaegar broke the silence by looking up at his mother, "Is love really for fools mother?"
She straightened in her chair, reaching out to caress his head. "Nothing is for fools so long as you have a plan and understand the consequences of your actions. No one is a fool with a plan and resolve."
Rhaegar mulled this over, watching his mother's face. When she had arrived she'd been free of her weirwood makeup, wearing only dark khol around her unusual eyes, but she traveled with a heavy hood. Now the makeup was back, framing her features and those frightening eyes that took in everything and nothing all at once. Her skin was like snow now, having been in the Eyrie where she said the sky was made of clouds and keeps sat between them. "Love is not the same for all, is it, mother?"
"No."
"Hm." Rhaegar mused. His mother loved him. The love that radiated from her was unlike anything he ever felt from anyone. Other could not even match her with their rage at his existence. The way his grandmother loved him, was unlike any other as well and the way his uncle loved him, was as though he were always there. Rhaegar too loved them all in mirrored fashion, he concluded, but he could not decided just how he loved Xara Xaq. It was not mirrored. It was more. She was family and she was not. "I think, then, when I am ready, I will marry Xara Xaq."
"As you wish." His mother responded almost dismissively.
Rhaegar looked down the table to his betrothed. He climbed from his seat and walked the length of the table to her side. She was smiling at him, that same smile she gave whenever he'd conquered some imaginary beast in the training yard or defeated his uncle in battle. He took her hand. "I will be more than a bastard one day, Lady Xaq. I will buy you a great and beautiful stone to wear. I will give you a wonderful home and anything you desire. You will see. I will make you happy."
Tears pricking at her eyes, Xara gathered Rhaegar's hand in her own and kissed his little knuckles. "I have no doubts."